Saturday, March 12, 2016

Worry freak

I am worry freak

Kalau boleh semua benda pun kami nk worry. Worry n scare tu sama ke eh...mmm
Dulu worry about rayyan...camana dia nak skolah...dgn main language dia tak tau...
Now nampaknya he survive ...dah bleh vaca buku in mandarin and kira 1-20 ...siap ada offer nk ajar kami time dia exam last week...but still...i am still worry
Pastu org lain tak siapkan keja pun i am worry...mcm nak pi tlg dia buatkan keja tu..
Pastu kami plak mmgla tak suka marah2 n be strict...i just dont know how to be that...when my worryness dah reach limit...i will find other way or plan b to get things done...so my percentage of worryness will be lower...but still....i am worried..
Pastu bila bos kami ckp.keja kami ciput2  ja...tu pun satu keworian..haiyaa...tak cukup effort lg rupanyaa...rasa mcm.dh habis tenaga kuasa kuda dah wat keja...let's worry that on monday...heuuu...mcm.boleh la kan....
My illness ni sampai asben kami ckp even it shows in my sleeps...muka risau memanjnag katanyaa...what am.i thinking...
Mestila byk was playing in my head kan..
Tidur nowadays just to refill energy saja..rilek efection tu mcm dh xde...sb worry so much...sometime..i dont feel like sleeping pun...kalau boleh nak nak siapkan keja sampai habis baru nk tido...tp bdn dh tak daya....so my body sleep while my head is still working....mmm...
Cuti sekolah dah rupanyaa...tak plan apa2 pun kat budak2 ...sian depa....kita dulu time cuti skolah pun takpi mana pun...all i remembered...cuti skolah adalah masa bermain paling best...kol 8pagi keluar...naik basikal puisng kmapung jumpa geng n plan apa nak main harini...celah2 tu..balik rumah minum air or mkn skit...
Ada time main rounders...masak2 ...main kenduri kahwin...pegi kedai mamak...naik basikal sampai ke taman nuri...lalu lalang depan kilang roti sebab nak amik bau roti baru masak...which is heaven...pastu share duit beli keropok2 ...main card...masuk main dlm rumah tak.siap...lepak bwh pokok berangan sama2 ...kene gigit nyamuk ..geng kami time tu..anis nazrah aliyah mariam..anis dah jd tomboy skang...byk wat mende2 dgn dia laa. .....anak2 aku tatau apa dia fikir cuti skolah ni...maybe dok fikir...where is the next holiday destination...mm

Cukupla kan..bak kata meksiah in her status..

Stop worrying and start living
While i said
Stop worrying and start working...hewhhew